Second Chance First Date

So, in my last blog I mentioned that I reached out to Ryan to see if he'd like to meet again. Well, last night was that meet up.

He came to my house after work so he could change. He kissed me hello (nothing fancy or french)...which I'm ok with.  He changed and then we headed to The Hideaway for some Karaoke watching. It was incredibly loud in there but we enjoyed some good food and a frothy beverage. After about an hour, I asked him if he wanted to hit up a movie. He paid for the meal, and I discovered that he's not the best tipper. I thought that he was because on a previous date, at the Iron Rooster, the waiter came by our table and thanked us again, so I thought that was because he was very generous on the tip. Well, the bill was $36 something. I asked if he wanted me to pay the tip since the waitress only brought back big bills in change. He told me that the tip is $7. Um, NO! The tip is at least $8! I tipped $10! I figured maybe I could set a precedent for any future tippage.

Now, invited someone (anyone) to a movie with me is not my thing because I enjoy the movies alone for a number of reasons which I may or may not have explained in a really old blog. One reason is when the lights go down, my inner "lioness", if you will, goes up and I get distracted and can't enjoy the movie. Well, there was no lioness, tigress or any other big-cat-ness happening at the theater...just the movie. I got more turned on by seeing Matt Damon's scrawny hind parts on the screen than my company. I'm not sure what this means just yet.

When we left the theater it was 1am and I was kinda tired. If I was with other company I could have been persuaded to have another frothy beverage at The Greene Turtle before closing time, but I wasn't feeling it. Therefore, I drove him back to my house and he had to come in to get his clothes and what not.

I came in and took care of my Doghter. He sorta stood by the door, perhaps waiting to see if I was going to invite him to stay a bit... I wasn't. I gave the ol' "Ok, well.... thanks for tonight and I'll let you know how tomorrow goes" spiel.  He went in for another American kiss and then did his weird putting his forehead on mine and it's just weird. I don't know if he was trying to get a bit more French, Eskimo, or just wanted to linger there. It's awkward. I did not like that and it's not the first time he's done that. It happens just about every time it's a "goodbye" type of thing. It's just weird to me. I'm not sure what it is. Is it he is hoping for more of a make out session? Is it his way of being "cute"? I don't know why it bugs me so much either! I could easily say that I am just not feeling it.... but I'm still willing to "date" and just see if feelings change. Not sure if they will, but you never know. I want butterflies and I'm not getting anything that flutters.

We shall see....

The Boomerang Effect and Ryan Rebound

So, first...let me fill in some gaps that seem to have occurred. When I left off, I wasn't sure how I felt about Ryan and was up in the air about where it would go. I told Ryan that I wasn't sure how I felt and that I wanted to spend time with him and enjoyed his company but I just wasn't sure if that was because I would enjoy anyone's companionship because I enjoy doing things and it's better with company so I was getting friend vibes but was willing to continue to see if those feelings grew. I told him that Stevie Wonder was still a go as long as he was ok with still going. He said that he didn't feel comfortable so I found someone else to attend. Ryan also said he wanted to stay in touch though which confused me because if you don't feel comfortable going to a concert with me, why would you want to stay in touch? Anyway, I said ok and found a replacement date for Stevie Wonder....which brings me to my next dramatic matter that's going to get a whole bunch of people riled up for many different reasons but here we go......

So, Boomerang is a guy I met about 8 to 9 years ago now.  I call him Boomerang (and yes, he know this is his nickname given by me) because I keep throwing him out of my life and he keeps coming back in, like a boomerang! It took me a good solid 2-3 years to tear through all the lies that Boomerang told me at the beginning of our "relationship" and discover the truth about him which is that he is married and in an open relationship. I have verified this is true and that his wife couldn't careless about the ins and outs of what he does with others since there really is no relationship/marriage at the home front, just two people staying together for the kids' sake. So, despite all the BS from Boomerang, we have grown closer and know and understand each other as well as any two people can. I feel comfortable with him, always have even with his lies and BS.  Now, my friends that know me best feel that I feel comfortable with him because he's of no commitment threat since he's already spoken for. I agree with this to a degree.

Before Boomerang, I was with Jose. Jose and I moved pretty fast into a relationship and moving in together. We didn't spend time truly getting to know one another and that led to huge problems throughout the 11 months we were together. However, I felt comfortable with him from the very first time I met him. One could argue that I felt comfortable with him because he lived 2 hours away so I still had my "freedom" and therefore there still was no immediate commitment threat. But, I was never put off by his affection, him wanting to hold hands or cuddle.... same with Boomerang. I've always been comfortable with both of those past guys.

I digress.... Boomerang is the reason I decided to reach out to Ryan again. I was talking to Boomerang about Ryan and he mentioned that I seemed to be coming up with a lot of random faults. He said "are you sure the problem is him and not you?" Well, that made me think twice. I know I have problems opening up to people and letting my guard down, but it made me start thinking that perhaps I ended things prematurely and for frivolous things. So, last night I sent Ryan a text that in summary said that I think I got scared that we were moving too fast and I didn't want to rush things and have things end like they've done before or rush into things before we really know one another and be blind sided later on by things (aka a Jose situation).  He got back to me and said he knows that he can rush things but he can also be patient. He also said that he likes me a lot and "would most definitely like to see [me] again."  So, we will most likely meet up Friday night somewhere simple and just chill. Not Netflix and chill....just chill.... in public.... and fully clothed!

Stay tuned.....